I am not ready for this type of workout”. How can I tell him I need to stop without making it seem like I am quitting? This was a mistake. I felt like I was going to pass out any second and started to panic. Twelve minutes and 40 jump squats later I was slumped over in a folding chair, struggling for breath. Jason put some wrist wraps and boxing gloves on my hands and showed me how to punch a bag. I remember my first workout at Bodies by Burgoon in vivid detail. If it seemed like a good fit we would rearrange our life for 6 months to make the time commitment and finances work. I read everything on every page, several times, over the course of a week and finally decided to see if Jesse would be interested. So I found the Bodies by Burgoon website. The gym wasn’t fancy (I didn’t want fancy), the workouts looked intense (I liked that), and there seemed to be a sense of encouragement and rooting for one another that was very appealing to me. Then I stumbled upon a video on Facebook of Dawn working out at BBB. This didn’t feel like the life we wanted. We talked a lot about hiking, biking, kayaking, and riding horses but we realized that, in our current state, we would be able to do one of those things and then we would have to spend the rest of the trip recovering. At that time, we were also planning a 10th anniversary trip to Patagonia in Argentina. He started to become cranky and withdrawn from the kids and me. Jesse’s lower back pain had become debilitating. We became more and more self-conscious about how we looked and felt. Jesse and I were both near our heaviest weights. Last August we finally reached the end of our rope. We had short-lived success with fitness, but nothing ever stuck. Life never slowed down! We changed jobs, traveled, remodeled our house, became parents (to two wonderful kids), and many other amazing and time-consuming things. So even though it was a value of ours, in our day-to-day reality, healthy living became an afterthought something we would be able to focus on later when we had more time. But neither of us were naturally drawn to physical activity and the first years of our marriage were busy. We both agreed that living a healthy life was important to us. If we wanted to grow in the same areas then we could do it together. Thankfully, I had a flash of insight: we were young and unfinished. At 25 I was not everything I hoped to be in this life so I couldn’t expect the person I married to be complete either. What I wanted was someone with similar goals. Ten years ago Jesse and I were falling in love, enjoying the rush of getting to know each other and trying to figure out if this person was THE ONE. I had a list of things I hoped my husband would be.
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